Day 45: I need to eat and drink

Last days I eat too much. Never eat so much like now. All day I'm hungry. Ok. I eat first time at 2 p.m., but at 10, 11p.m. I'm so hungry. I know that I only think that I'm hungry and that I must to eat. A few minutes ago I look around my room if I have some sweets. I don't found it, so I drink water. Sometimes I drink a lot, but other day I don't drink at all. But in bouth case I feel that I'm thirsty. This problem with thirst I have a few years and I went then to the doctor, who told me that I'm ok.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that I'm really hungry. When and as I see myself think that I'm really hungry, I stop and breath. I realize that sometimes we thirsty, but we think that we must to eat. So is better if I think that I'm hungry at first drink and in that way see if I'm really hungry or not. I commit myself that I drink before eat if I don't know if I'm hungry.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself need to eat sweets and other junk food. When and as I see myself need to eat sweets and other younk food, I stop and breath. I realize that I must eat more fruits and vegetables, but I don't like it. I commit myself that I eat more fruits and vegetables.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I don't like fruits and vegetables. When and as I see myself that I don't like fruits and vegetables, I stop and breath. I realize that this is only in my mind, because some fruits and vegetables don't try to eat, but I still I say that I don't eat that food. I commit myself that try to eat and then say if is good or not good food.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that I drink too much or not enough water. When and as I see myself think that I drink too much or not enough water, I stop and breath. I realize that I listen more other people who say how much I must drink, not my body. I fell that I have dry mouth all the time, if I drink or not. I know that is some problem, but I don't know what. I know, that I don't have diabetes, but I don't see the reason why I have this problem. I commit myself that I start listen my body.

Day 44: Constantly work

I realize that when I write my blogs more constanty, that I have less problems with myself and have more energy to write and work. Last days I write less and I'm so tired and don't want write. And for my lazyness blame sun and beautifull weather. But in real I am guilty, because I listen my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be tired and lazy and blame for that sun and beautifull weather. When and as I see myself be tired and lazy and blame for that sun and beautifull weater, I stop and breath. I realize that I more often go out and work more outside, so when I came inside I'm tired and only look on web and listen and read what interesting me. But for write I'm too tired, so I skip that and prefere chat with other. I commit myself that I write more often blogs, because this help me so much.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed mysef blame sun and beautifull weather for my lazyness. When and as I see myself blame sun and beautifull weather for my lazyness, I stop and breath. I realize that this is in my mind and in real my mind told me, that I must blame things outside me, not myself. I commit myself that I blame myself or better, I tried do different things that I want to do at the first.

I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself too much think and don't see what is in the real. When and as I see myself too much think and don't see what is in the real, I stop and breath. I realize that I think too much and I know a lot of informations, but I don't know how to use it, or explain this other people. So in the end is the best, when I do for myself and when other ask me what I do that I'm change myself and in that moment I explain them, not in each moment with all what I listen frome other people, but I don'tknow if work. I commit myself that I think less and do more.

Day 43: If I give I have

In the last days I write about death. I share what I write in the forum and I bring back interesting answer that I start to think about it. They write if I take care for someone I can take the same much of care for myself. And if I look animals I can see in them somethink I can do for myself.

I forgive myself that I not have accepted and allowed myself see what I can give other, that I can give myself too. When and as I see myself to see what I can give other, that I can give myself too, I stop and breath. I realize that I don't see what I must see, because I do a lot of thinks for other people, and forgive in myself and look small thinks, that I can give it myself, by the other people. I commit myself that I see how worth I am and give what give other in the first time for myself, but in same time I'm not selfish.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to see when I observe animals, how to create my own feelings. When and as I see myself not to see when I observe animals, how to create my own feelings, I stop and breath. I realize that I see in pair of animals love, but I feel when I observ them happiness, peace, only good feelings. How feel some feeling in my body I must remember and when I want to show other what I feel, I show with my body. I commit myself that I look and see what I must to see and show other what I feel with my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that I can't fell a love or be in love. When and as I see myself thinkthat I can't fell a love or be in love, I stop and breath. I realize that for me was love is when you feel something special, but not more. Now is love when you listen your partner and talk with him, do all the thing together, do something for patner. Love isn't feeling, is way of life. All, people, animal and plants is equal, and you love all, not only your partner. I commit myself that start love myself and other aroud me.

Day 42: Bad news

Yesterday we moved our geese, because demolish build next fence where they are. Today morning mum found one goose is death, but other is missing. We think that some animal kill them. I miss them, because they was so funny and I love to look at them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself miss this two geese. When and as I see myself miss this two geese, I stop and breath. I realize that I see them each day, or hear it. Sometimes I take them to the wather wher they swim and I look them. I coomit myself that I do something else and don't think about them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself miss geese, because they are so funny, but I don't. When and as I see myself miss geese, because they are so funny, but I don't, I stop and breath. I realize that I'm not funny, is only in my mind. They are funny, because swim in funny way, and do funny things, but all this is funny for me, and mybe for other people not. I commit myself that I'm real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be jealous on them, because they are pair and be together all the time. When and as I see myself be jealous on them, because they are pair and be together all the time, I stop and breath. I realize that this is different betwen animals and people. Animals don't need love, like people. They need other animal for reproduce and nothing else. Peopel need love for be together with someone and live together. I commit myself that I don't compare with animal, not jet.

Day 41: My moments

Yesterday I went to the drink with my friend for one or two hour and came home today at 3AM. I want to meet only my friend, but I stay longer that I think stay at the first. I don't like loud music, but this time it's be ok, but I have fingers on my ears. In the real I hear more than if I dont have fingers on my ears.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself fell bad, because I stay there longer than I think in the start. When and as I see myself fell bad, because I stay there longer than I think in the start, I stop and breath. I realize that I think that my parents have first and last word, because I live in their house. Because my parents I fell bad, because I stay longer, but in the same time I enjoj in that moments, when I be somewhere I want to be and all is be cool, peace,... In the same time I want go home and stay there, but in the end I stay, buy band CD and in the some way help them. I commit myself that it no need think stay or go home, I must think what is better for all and I chose this time correctly.

I forgive myself that I have acceptedand allowed myself thinking about music if is too loud or not, and if I look like stupud with fingers in my ears or not. When and as I see myself thinking about music if is too loud or not, and if I look like stupid with finges in my ears or not, I stop and breath. I realize that noone look me, because all look band and listen them, and I am don't look like stupid, because I listen more, because I listen middle tones, so I hear and understand more in that way. And yes, music it was too loud for me, because I go in that kind of concert once of year, if my friends take me with him, and I don't like this kind of music, but this band is cool for me. I commit myself that I do what I think that is the best for me and other around me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking, that I am tone-deaf . Whwn and as I see myself thinking, that I am tone-deaf, I stop and breath. I realize that is more than one way to have an ear for music. You can sing a music (note), and listen each music (note), or you can only sing with someone else. All this is way to have an ear for music. So I have an ear for music. I commit myself that I think that I have an ear for music and dont think that I don't have.

Day 40: Beauty/average

Today I look some video. There two doors. Above one is word beauty, above other is word average. In first all go through door with word average, but in the end all go througt door with word beautifull. This doors is for women and told us, that all women is beautifull. I go throught door with word average, because I'm average. All my beauty is in my average. Beauty is only word, nothing else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking that women decite wrong, because they choose door where is word beautifull. When and as I see myself thinking that women decide wrong, because they choose door where is word beautifull, I stop and breath. I realize that this is their choose, not mine, and they have chace to decide and choose door that they want. I commit myself that I thinking about myself and my choose.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that word beautifull is not correct word and I can't use it. When and as I see myself think that word beautifull is not correct word and I can't use it, I stop and breath. I realize that beautifull is word and only word and I can use it, but if I say that someting is beautifull I must know, that is somewhere something that I say, this is ugly, because words ugly is oposite of word beautifull, so is better than if I don't use this words. I commit myself that I use words and don't use words with fellings.

Day 39: Driving car

Today I go with car in the capital city. This is small town with 260,000 people. So I drive behind bus, that go in the bus stop. In the end bus stop one car want go to the street, so this car want go in my driving line. I see this car and want prevent a car incident, so almoust go to the next driving line. In this moment noone be in next line. My heart start beating so hart, so I think how calm it down and start breath, but I think about this moment a lot of time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself react in this situation and be scared. When and as I see myself react in this situation and be scared, I stop and breath. I realize that if I look what is around me, mybe I can see this car. I commit myself that I be more carefull when I'm in car.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not look aroud what is doing on, I see only car that want in my driving line. When and as I see myself not look around what is doing on, I see only car that want in my driving line. I realize that I must look where is other cars behind me and next to me, but all is doing so fast. I commit myself that I'm more carefull the car around me.