Day 114: I am not pretty enough 5

I think what mean to be pretty. And first think is feel good in my body. And This is it. If I feel good in my body I like myself and I look like pretty. This is it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't think before what mean be pretty for me. I realise that be pretty mean for each person different and I must realise what mean to me, when I think that I'm pretty and when I see other people pretty and when I live word pretty. I commit myself that I behave that I feel good in each moment and don't feel more or less or I feel shy/awkward.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't see before how pretty I am.When and as I see myself to don't see before how pretty I am, I stop and breath. I realise that I feel pretty when I feel good in my skin, I feel good in the moment and feel good in middle of people and don't feel lonely when I'm in group. I commit myself that if I don't feel good in the group, I go away and breath and realise why I feel bad and latter came back.

pretty

[prit-ee] 

adjective, prettier, prettiest.

1.

pleasing or attractive to the eye, as by delicacy or gracefulness:

a pretty face.

2.

(of things, places, etc.) pleasing to the eye, especially without grandeur.

3.

pleasing to the ear:

a pretty tune.

4.

pleasing to the mind or aesthetic taste:

He writes pretty little stories.

5.

(often used ironically) fine; grand:

This is a pretty mess!

6.

Informal. considerable; fairly great:

This accident will cost him a pretty sum.

7.

Archaic or Scot.. brave; hardy.

noun, plural pretties.

8.

Usually, pretties. pretty ornaments, clothes, etc.

9.

a pretty person:

Sit down, my pretty.

adverb

10.

fairly or moderately:

Her work was pretty good.

11.

quite; very:

The wind blew pretty hard.

12.

Informal. prettily.

verb (used with object), prettied, prettying.

13.

to make pretty; improve the appearance of (sometimes followed byup):

to pretty oneself for a party; to pretty up a room.

Idioms

14.

sitting pretty, Informal.

1. in an advantageous position.
2. well-to-do; successful.

Who I am as word pretty?

I am person who behave good and feel good in each situation. I like myself and all people see this, so all people see how pretty I am, but not because I'm pretty, but because I feel it and live it. 

Day 113: I am not pretty enough 4

A few days ago I dress a close-fitting t-shirt after a one ear or more and I feel nice in it. After a good news I feel better. So when I have meeting I feel so good and I can start conversation fast and I was the most outspoken person in group. I feel pretty. And I was nervous, but this is other story.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not feel pretty so much time, because I don't like my body. When and as I see myself to not feel pretty so much time, because I don't like my body, I stop and breath. I realise that I hate my body because I don't feel good in it. I don't lost so much kg or cm, but I feel much better in my skin. I feel that I can change myself in better way and only me can do this. I commit myself that I dress myself in that kind of dresses that I feel good in it, because all people around me can see how I feel.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I don't deserve like myself because I don't like my body. When and as I see myself to think that I don't deserve like myself because I don't like my body, I stop and breath. I realise that I'm not only my body and love/like myself is not only like/love my body, but accept myself, my attitude, my speaking, my behave, my thinking, all. I commit myself that I see, that I'm not only my body, but my personality too.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think too much about my depression and what I must do to came back, but not really live all this. When and as I see myself to think too much about depression and what I must do to came back, but not really live all this, I stop and breath. I realise that I do all what I do in last months because I want came back, and do all because I must, not because I want to do. But now I see that I all what I do it was good for my mind and my body and when I see that I lost some kg I like myself more than before and I feel better than ever that I remember. I commit myself that I do because I want, not because I must to do.