petek, 29. december 2017

Day 128: Love 2

And he told me that he can see us in relationship, but when I ask him to meet, he don't have time to do that. So, I became nervous and bad mood and almost cry, because I feel bed, because I think that I'm not enough good for him.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to almost cry because he told me that he see us in relationship, but he don't have time for meet. When and as I see myself to almost cry because him, I stop and breath. I realise that we have different perception in ours life and I'm that person who must wait and be in the moment and support him that he decide what he want in life. So, I commit myself that I don't push on him, but I support him if he want support from me, but if he don't want, I leave him alone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I'm not good enough for him, because he don't have time for me. When and as I see myself to think that I'm not good enough for him, I stop and breath. I realise that I can't know if I'm good enough for him or not in any way, but if he don't have time, he don't want be with me in relationship, only be friend with me. So, I commit myself to not tell myself if I'm good enough for other people or not, but I be myself and be the best I can be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for other men and each men is cute for me. When and as I see myself to look for other men and each men is cut for me, I stop and breath. I realise that last time I look for men and a lot of men is cute for me and want be with them. the most is that is holiday time and I feel lonely because I'm alone, but I think that I'm not prepare for go in relationship with any men that I look on. So, I commit myself to when any man is cute for me, I stop, breath and look why is cute for me and how I feel in that moment and if I feel lonely and look for someone I must to know, that I don't need it.

sreda, 27. december 2017

Day 127: Last moment

I see that I do all important and no so important things in last minute. I have a lot of time to do one thing, like one month, but I do it last days and look in the clock if I finish in right moment.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not doing when I have time, but last moment. When ans as I see myself to not doing what I must to do when I have time, but last moment, I stop and breath. I realise that I take difficult theme and then i don't want to write or doing when I have enough time, but I do when I don't time or last moment. I commit myself to take time each weekend and write blog, and when I doing something I take time like week before end and doing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put off all what I don't like. When and as I see myself to put off all what I don't like, I stop and breath. I realise that I like to put off all what I don't like and do what I like to do, but there is something more important than other and if I delay something important I must do or finish in last moment and I hate that in real. So, I commit myself to do all when I have time and don't delay, because in the end all must be done.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become hungry, sleepy, thirsty if and when I must something to do or finish and I don't like that to do. When and as I see myself to become hungry, sleepy, thirsty if and when I must something to do, I stop and breath. I realise that I became that when I don't like do what I doing and I find all possible excuses to not to do, but when I finish I see, that it will be better if I don't look for excuses, because I lost lot of time. So, I commit myself that when I see myself to look for excuses or became hungry, I look why I do that and do some SF.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for excuses when I don't need it. When and as I see myself to look for excuses when I don't need it, I stop and breath. I realise that is better to go trough problem, writing and finish as soon as possible and later do what I think that I need to do, but is only excuse. I commit myself to move myself in position what I don't like and go trough problems I have in that moment.

četrtek, 30. november 2017

Day 126: Love 1

Or what I hate on you. Yes, I see on him something negative too, because I know him so much time and we have ups and downs, so I can see his pluses and minuses and this time I see minuses or how different is than me.



I forgive mysefl that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't like how close is he. When and as I see myself to don't like how close is he, I stop and breath. I realise that I don't know how to prepare him to told me more about him and if he like me or not. But I must to realize that when he want he told me about himself, so I must leave him alone or only support him. I don't like this, because I thin and see myself like a outspoken person who told a lot about myself. So, I commit myself that I don't hate how close he is and I only support him to be himself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't like his shy. When and as I see myself to don't like his shy, I stop and breath. I realise that he like small talk, but when we start talk about him or relation he became shy and son't tell anything about him and what he think. So, I commit myself that I'm carefull and only listen him and support and once maybe tell me more about himself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't like his small talk, because he want to chat when I'm bussy. When and as I see myself to don't like his small talk, I stop and breath. I realise that I often want only talk with someone, so he want to talk with me too, but he want only type all conversations and I don't have time and will be better if we talk, but he don't want to talk on phone or skype or any where, so I must typing too. I commit myself that I accepted his wish and breath and told him if I don't have enough time for chat.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't like because he don't want chat on phone. When and as I see myself to don't like because he don't want to chat on phone, I stop and breath. I realise that if you typing you slow your mind and think what you must to write and so on. But in some situations I want to hurry up all together, because I don't have time, I want to told him a lot of things as so on, but he don't like chat on phone any time, ok, he call me before we need to meet each other and he is not on computer to write. But I want to chat or listen him more often than once in two years when we see each other. So, I commit myself to calm myself, breath, and accepted that he don't like chat on phone and when I want to chat ask if he want and if he say no, I don't care about that.

sreda, 29. november 2017

Day 125: Love

Yes, I write that I'm in love, but in real I don't know what think about. I know this men a few years and last 2 years are single. And I'm tired because I want to tell him direct and indirect that I like him, but he don't react on any suggestion, so I don't know where I am. And when I see him I become crazy on him and I think that he like me too, but I don't know if it's real.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want be with him, but I don't know if he want be with me. When and as I see myself to want be with him, but I don't know if he want to be me, I stop and breath. I realise that I want be with him, because I see something on him, but I don't know jet what. He don't have time for me, is all the time bussy, I cry often because of him and all the time I'm dissapointed in relation on him, but when I see him I'm in love. So, I commit myself that I want to be real when I see him and see what is the thing that I love or what I want to have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in real conversation scare to told him that will be better if he made first step and so on, but on computer I don't have any problem to told him anything. When and as I see myself to in real conversation scare to told him that will be better if he made first step and so on, but on computer I don't have any problem to told him anything, I stop and breath. I realise that there is not that guilty of computer but it is my feelings to him and because it I scare told mu all and how I want to tell me. I commit myself to try next time be alone with him and told him all what I want to told him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't want to leave him because we know each other too much time. When and as I see myself to don't want to leave him because we know each other too much time, I stop and breath. I realise that I think that if I leave to go where he want to go, I hurt him, but in this way I hurt myself and is tough for me because I live this life, and I wish that once be together, because now we are only friends or less, but we know each other 6 or 7 years and I don't want to lost him. I commit myself that I go and breath and live my life and allow him to live his life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I'm guilty that he left his ex. When and as I see myself to think that I'm guilty that he left his ex, I stop and breath. I realise that he left his ex because he want do this and not bcause we kiss each other once when we meet each other. So, I commit myself to when I feel guilty, I stop, brath and know, that left partner is because them, not my guilty and he made this choice.

torek, 31. oktober 2017

Day 124: To lie myself

Last time I see myself that I want to help and support other people, but in my words is not that I do. I tell them something and doing something else. And what I tell them is only theory and I must be the first person who live that theory. So because I only tell them and not living I lie myself and other people.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not to live what I talk to other people what they must to do. When and as I see myself to not to live what I talk to other people what they must to do, I stop and breath. I realise that often I talk about think that I don't live, but I have a lot of things about that theme to tell and advice them. But how I can give someone advice if I don't live that. So, I commit myself that I when I see myself to want to give other people advice where I know only theory and don't live, I stop and breath and I told them that like, I don't do this jet, but it will be god if we think and do in that and that way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel that I lie myself when I tell other what I don't live in my life but only heard that is the best to do in that way. When and as I see myself to feel that I lie myself when I tell other what I don't live in my life but only heard that is the best to do in that way, I stop and breath. I realise that I often listen other people and with no try myself that in my life and prof that what they say is true I told the same stuff other people and this is not god for me and other people who told me and who listen me. So, I commit myself that I try and prove what I head and want to tell other people for support or argument.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad like I have something in myself when I told other people what I don't prove in my life. When and as I see myself to feel bad like I have something in myself when I told other people what I don't prove in my life, I stop and breath. I realise that if something is logic from my experiences that I have and I heard from someone I can connect my experience and their knowing and can support other, but if I have only knowing with no similar experiences I can't  support other with this knowing. So, I commit myself that before talk something to someone I must believe in that information and trust them and prove them from myself or only I prove a part of information and logically connect with my experiences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not to feel bad when I talk about politics that I don't want heart about, because I'm not prepare for that, but I have a lot of advice about. When and as I see myself to not to feel bad when I talk about politics that I don't want heart about, because I'm not prepare for that, but I have a lot of advice about, I stop and breath. I realise that this is for me biggest point to work on, because in one way I don't want think and participate in politics, but in other way I have a lot of advice about how to react and be good politics, so I must work on this and become person who go in the election and give my voice for kandidate that I like it and is the most stable and talk what they think and do. So, I commit myself to don't talk too much about politics since I don't give my vote for one of them.

nedelja, 29. oktober 2017

Day 123: Cat and fear of height

Today my mum say that I went to something to other building and with big problem I go. I see open door and light inside and then I see cat in the balcony in the top of the stairs. I call cat, but they don't response and cat scare of me, because don't want go next to me on the stars down. It look down from balcony in the other side and I scare that jump down. I call it, but not response. I go up in the stairs and cat in the end look last time down and jump. I hear only dum- dum and then I see cat how to run. It's survive, but I don't know if they have any problems. And yes, it jump 4 meters or more.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to scare that cat will jump when I see his attention and when it look down. When and as I see myself to scare that cat will jump when I see his attention and when it look down, I stop and breath. I realise that I scare height and I scare that cat will hurt itself if jump down that 4 meters, because I believe that I don't survive if I jump from that height. But cat more afraid me that height and jump and survive. I commit myself that if I want something to not to do any animal only go away and don't scare if they survive or not, because they don't afraid anything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to afraid of height and I think that animals have too. When and as I see myself to afraid of height and I think that animals have too, I stop and breath. I realise that animals look and when they see that jump is only solution they jump and survive, because they not think about height, but how to land to survive and be ok. But we think more about height, what can go wrong and why not to jump and all consequences if we jump or fall, so we are not in the moment and we think about fears, but animals use only run or fight, but they don't think too much what to do. I commit myself to learn how to react with look on animals and their behaviour.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that cat not survive after the jump, but I see how they run. When and as I see myself to think that cat not survive after the jump, but I see how they run, I stop and breath. I realise that I not need be in the shock after seeing cat jump 4 meters or more and hear how land in the grass with no problem, but I accept myself like a person who is in the moment and don't think about fears and what can be wrong if I do something. I must be like this cat, who land in the feet and survive and run away. I must survive and be myself. I commit myself that I don't think only observe what is doing around myself and learn a lot new things.

sobota, 30. september 2017

Day 122: Lost

I want to call back someone and my phone don't react. So I become nervous and lost, because I don't know what to do. I wash my hand and screen, nothing work. What now? I borrow some phone that I call back person that call me, and then I go in the repair shop ask what to do. They told me that touch screen don't work and they need one week to repair. I feel lost, because I need some help what to do from ma family. I ask them there how much is if I buy new phone and I see that was not good. In the end I borrow one phone and call home that they help me. I live phone there and go around and all the time feel empty and lost. 



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad and lost because I can't use a phone. When and as I see myself feel bad and lost because I can't use a phone, I stop and breath. I realise that I have addiction and this is good therapy to heal myself. It the worst be addict from a thing that is not good for me and not help me. Ok, in the some way is help me, but in other not. I commit myself that I must leave phone more often at home and don't use them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take so mush attention a thing like phone. When and as I see myself to take so much attention a thing like phone, I stop and breath. I realise that I use different phones more that 17 years and this is more than half of my age. I commit myself that I must from time to time look from what I'm addicted and do all that prevent too big addiction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel better if I have phone next to me with battery full and connection on web and talk with other, than without phone. When and as I see myself to feel better if I have phone next to me with battery full and connection on web and talk with other, than without phone, I stop and breath. I realise that I must be in touch all the time and if I don't answer in the moment than they call me or write me is bad for me and my business, but this is only in my head. A 20 years ago we call each other once or we talk about meeting a months, weeks or days ago and all be ok, but now, we must call a minute before we meeting each other. I commit myself that I from time to time put phone in cabinet and go out and breath and be in the moment that I can't be if I have phone in the pocket or next to me when I think about phone all the time and not be in moment. 

četrtek, 28. september 2017

Day 121: Money

So in the end I find job in factory, because I need money. I don't like money, but I need it in this sistem. And I must earn some money for survive in sistem and take chance to other people too. If I survive in this sistem and work with money, can help other people see money in the same way.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I don't need money. When and as I see myself to think that I don't need money, I stop and breath. I realise that I need money in this sistem for survive in. There is the most of selling and buying is with money. I commit myself that accept money like something that I need in this moment in this sistem and I must learn work with it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think what I buy for money that I earn it. When and as I see myself to think what I buy for money that I earn it, I stop and breath. I realise that there are a lot of things that I want it, but I need money for this. I want and need new computer, travel around the word and visit people that I want know them in real life too. I commit myself that I look what I really need to buy and what is something that I don't need. Next I must see if I find something cheaper with the same quality. With travelling I must look the cheapest version of travel.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need money if I want be popular. When and as I see myself to believe that I need money if I want be popular, I stop and breath. I realise that real friend like you with or without money and being popular is not because money, but because your charisma, behaviour and other things. So, I commit myself to be who I am and who like me now, this person like me whenever and now I don't have money, but I can say, that I am popular or people like me.

sreda, 30. avgust 2017

Day 120: I change 3

I think that a lot of people live in bubble or box and see their wold on their way. And this bubble/box is our mind and we scare go out of them. And I made first step for going out of this bubble/box.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to scare think out of the box. When and as I see that I scare think out of the box, I stop and breath. I realise that we scare all what is new and we don't trust on it, so we prefer be in that box and be safe. But there is world out of the box. So, I commit myself that I try think out of the box and don't scare if I see and realise something new.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to scare move myself out of the box. When and as I see myself to scare move myself out of the box, I stop and breath. I realise that last time other people force me that I stop out of the box, out of my bubble. And I survive and be stronger than ever. I see that that things makes me stronger. So, I commit myself that next time when I must out out of the box or bubble I go and enjoy, because I can learn a lot, and I move myself out of the box too.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I'm not good enough and don't send a job request. When and as I see myself to think that I'm not good enough and don't send a job request, I stop and breath. I realise that I'm not so bad and send request, because I really need a job and money. And all what I need it is go out of the bubble where I think, that I'm not good enough and send mail. Is not so hard, but is big problem, if your mind is much stronger than your wish for change and when is wish enough big or you must do something, then your mind is not so much strong and you can move out of the bubble/box. So, I commit myself that I must see what is my wish and why I don't move, what I think about, what is my scares, and when I see problem in my mind I move myself.

ponedeljek, 14. avgust 2017

Day 119: I change 2

Today I look over how my perspective of love, partnership and men change if there any change at all.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to decide to not look for partnership, but when one man told me that he like me, I'm in the moment in love on them. When and as I see myself to decide to not look for partnership, but when one man told me that he like me, I'm in the moment in love on them, I stop and breath. I realise that I want be with someone who like me, but each time is the same end, he told me how he in love on me and when is tame for meeting is he disappear and I react each time the same. So, I commit myself that when someone told me that he like me I stop and breath and think why he told me that. Then I look all points why I like him and try see him in the end like a person that is the same than other. I look for my backchat too and find points that is the same with all men I meet them. Then I realise that I can be alone and I still not need the men for relationship, because I must have the real relationship with myself and I must do all to made this relationship with myself good enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want be in relationship with men. When and as I see myself to want be in relationship with men, I stop and breath. I realise, that I need someone to give me attention, because I still don't know how give enough attention for myself. So, I commit myself that I work on give enough attention for myself with little things like walk where I like to walk, be where like to be, do what I like to do and so on. Then when I see myself that I need someone I stop and breath and find the point why I need that attention or chat or be with someone. I must see difference between be with someone and look for attention because I can be with someone and don't look for attention because the person next to me I see the same I am and sometimes I look for attention on web, that is the worst thing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I don't look for partnership anymore, because I decide that I don't look for partner next few years till I become stable. When and as I see myself to think that I don't look for partnership anymore, because I decide that I don't look for partner next few years till I become stable, I stop and breath. I realise that this my decide is only a short therm decide because I look over the partner from time to time when me and my body want someone and when I'm full of hormones during the month circle and so on. When is the normal day I not need anyone, but from time to time I will kill for someone to talk and be with. And this is that I'm not stable enough and I need more work on myself. So, I commit myself that in that time I stop and breath and see what me and my body really need. Then I really calm myself with breathing and ask my body what they need. So then I give myself what I want and try be with myself and calm. If I'm angry on someone I breath, then if I really need I call someone who listen me and know how to put me on floor in right way. Then I look for all points that I must do it that this not need anymore and really work on myself and became stable.

četrtek, 13. julij 2017

Day 118: I change 1

I see that we don't want changes, that we scare it.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to scare change myself. When and as I see myself to scare change myself, I stop and breath. I realise that people like to live life that they know it and we scare change things in our lives. We prefer talk how bad is our life than we change it on better. But this change is only small step, but for people who must made change is big jump. So, I commit myself that I jump, I made changes in my life, because it will be better.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to scare change, because I don't know what change brings to me. When and as I see myself to scare change, because I don't know what change brings to me, I stop and breath. I realise that change brings to me change and we can change on better or in worst, but we stay people like since now. Changes change us. So, I commit myself that I begin like change, I accept it and see that change brings something new in my life and this is better than lay on the couch.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not to see that change brings in my life something new. When and as I son't see that change brings in my life something new, I stop and breath. I realise that each moment, each breath, each though is different like before. We change ourself each moment, we live change every moment but in the same time we scare changes, we want be sure what came to us next moment. But in that case we only thinking, not living life. So, I commit myself that I try live each moment, accepted new things, live change, accepted changes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to love looking change in nature, but I don't accepted change in relation with me. When and as I see myself to love looking change in nature, but I don't accepted change in relation with me, I stop and breath. I realise that I prefer look how nature is changing, how animals grow, how plants grow, I love to look how season change, how clouds change their shapes. But when I look myself I hate change, I don't want to change myself, I scare change, but I change, hears are grow, nails grow, we change weight and so on, but we don't see this little changes. But we hate big changes, we scare this big changes, but we scare what? So, I commit myself that I look change in nature, but I look change on and in myself too, because all change are beautiful and we must see it and realise it.

sreda, 12. julij 2017

Day 117: I change

Investigate more who I am as change. If I change something on myself. Am I change myself.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to scare changes. When and as I see myself to scare changes, I stop and breath. I realise that a lot of people don't want changes and so stay where they are and don't want to step in better way. But how is wrote. If you do always the same, not expect that results was different. So, I commit myself to each day I step out of the bubble and made change on myself or I made something that I don't feel comfortable in first moment, but in the end was good results.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't see change on myself. When and as I see myself that not to see change on myself, I stop and breath. I realise that I live from one day to another and sometimes I don't see myself. I know, that I work on myself, but I don't see how much change I made and if this change is real or only in my mind. So, I commit myself that I don't worry if I don't see if I change myself or other people say how much I change myself, but only work on on myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to write SF and I don't mean real about what I write. When and as I see myself to write SF and I don't mean real about what I write, I stop and breath. I realise that often I write something that I want to be written but I don't think what I wrote, because I'm tired, have a lot of work, it's late or I don't know what to write. So in that moment I only write and don't think about, but other days I write and forget what I write and there are some writings that I take time and I write because I want made change on me and that writing are the best for me. So, I commit myself that I before write something think what I want to write and see problems and solutions or only problems and through writings find solution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't live word change. When and as I see myself to don't live word change, I stop and breath. I realise that live word change is react different is similar situation, but this react is supportive for myself and people around me. But in SF I scare to write real good correction, because if I react like I write in SC statement I change myself and there are change and I scare change and scare be different that other days. But yes. Sometimes I react different like other days because I see in that moment that I must do that. I live change in the moment and feeling is good. So, I commit myself that I write good SC statement and do what I wrote and if I see what I must to change, I do that in moment when I see.

petek, 30. junij 2017

Day 116: I am not pretty enough 7

I don't believe in myself and I don't believe in other that they believe in me. So who I am and what I think that other people think about me.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not believe in myself because I don't see myself beautiful. When and as I see myself to not believe in myself because I don't see myself beautiful, I stop and breath. I realise that I think too much and don't be in the moment and thinking what I must change on myself and so on. But I don't see myself who I really am, because I don't see myself. I commit myself to believe that I'm beautiful with all my problems and I be beautiful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not believe in myself because I don't see myself pretty. When and as I see myself to not believe in myself because I don't see myself pretty, I stop and breath. Pretty is only be who I am and fell good in my body and who I am. I commit myself to believe that I'm pretty and I can be pretty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think what other people think about me. When and as I see myself to think what other people think about me, I stop and breath. I realise that other people don't have time to think about me, they have their own problems, because I don't have time for think about other people, because I don't have time for that. So, there is not any reasons to not be sure in myself and be myself. I commit myself when I start thinking what other people think about me, I stop, breath and realise that if I don't think about other people, they don't think about me.


sreda, 28. junij 2017

Day 115: I am not pretty enough 6

But in the end I must to look in that way. Am I not pretty enough for myself or for other or I only me think that I'm not enough pretty for other. Because my mum say to me, that I'm fat and I'm not pretty I think that I'm not pretty, but what is being pretty?



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see myself pretty. When and as I don't see myself pretty, I stop and breath. I realise that I'm pretty, because being pretty is not being beautiful, only feel good in my body. I commit myself that I accept myself like I am.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see my body like it is with all fat and problems and still think that I'm beautiful. When and as I don't see my body like it is with all fat and problems and still think I'm beautiful, I stop and breath. I realise that beauty is accept all problems in my body and accept my body like it is and feel beauty in it. I commit myself that I accept my bod like it is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen other people that I'm so pretty or I'm not pretty. When and as I see myself to listen other people that I'm so pretty or I'm not pretty, I stop and breath. I realise that I must really see myself who really am and see myself how I really look like. I commit myself that I listen only myself to know how I look like.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I'm not pretty enough for other people and myself. When and as I see myself to think that I'm not pretty enough for other people and myself, I stop and breath. I realise that I must be pretty enough for myself and not look what other people think. I commit myself that I see how pretty I am and when I think differently I stop, breath and see beauty points on me that I'm proud on it.

petek, 26. maj 2017

Day 114: I am not pretty enough 5

I think what mean to be pretty. And first think is feel good in my body. And This is it. If I feel good in my body I like myself and I look like pretty. This is it.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't think before what mean be pretty for me. I realise that be pretty mean for each person different and I must realise what mean to me, when I think that I'm pretty and when I see other people pretty and when I live word pretty. I commit myself that I behave that I feel good in each moment and don't feel more or less or I feel shy/awkward.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't see before how pretty I am.When and as I see myself to don't see before how pretty I am, I stop and breath. I realise that I feel pretty when I feel good in my skin, I feel good in the moment and feel good in middle of people and don't feel lonely when I'm in group. I commit myself that if I don't feel good in the group, I go away and breath and realise why I feel bad and latter came back.


pretty



[prit-ee] 

adjectiveprettier, prettiest.
1.
pleasing or attractive to the eye, as by delicacy or gracefulness:
a pretty face.
2.
(of things, places, etc.) pleasing to the eye, especially without grandeur.
3.
pleasing to the ear:
a pretty tune.
4.
pleasing to the mind or aesthetic taste:
He writes pretty little stories.
5.
(often used ironically) fine; grand:
This is a pretty mess!
6.
Informal. considerable; fairly great:
This accident will cost him a pretty sum.
7.
Archaic or Scot.. brave; hardy.
nounplural pretties.
8.
Usually, prettiespretty ornaments, clothes, etc.
9.
a pretty person:
Sit down, my pretty.
adverb
10.
fairly or moderately:
Her work was pretty good.
11.
quite; very:
The wind blew pretty hard.
12.
Informal. prettily.
verb (used with object)prettied, prettying.
13.
to make pretty; improve the appearance of (sometimes followed byup):
to pretty oneself for a party; to pretty up a room.
Idioms
14.
sitting pretty, Informal.
  1. in an advantageous position.
  2. well-to-do; successful.




Who I am as word pretty?
I am person who behave good and feel good in each situation. I like myself and all people see this, so all people see how pretty I am, but not because I'm pretty, but because I feel it and live it. 

četrtek, 18. maj 2017

Day 113: I am not pretty enough 4

A few days ago I dress a close-fitting t-shirt after a one ear or more and I feel nice in it. After a good news I feel better. So when I have meeting I feel so good and I can start conversation fast and I was the most outspoken person in group. I feel pretty. And I was nervous, but this is other story.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not feel pretty so much time, because I don't like my body. When and as I see myself to not feel pretty so much time, because I don't like my body, I stop and breath. I realise that I hate my body because I don't feel good in it. I don't lost so much kg or cm, but I feel much better in my skin. I feel that I can change myself in better way and only me can do this. I commit myself that I dress myself in that kind of dresses that I feel good in it, because all people around me can see how I feel.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I don't deserve like myself because I don't like my body. When and as I see myself to think that I don't deserve like myself because I don't like my body, I stop and breath. I realise that I'm not only my body and love/like myself is not only like/love my body, but accept myself, my attitude, my speaking, my behave, my thinking, all. I commit myself that I see, that I'm not only my body, but my personality too.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think too much about my depression and what I must do to came back, but not really live all this. When and as I see myself to think too much about depression and what I must do to came back, but not really live all this, I stop and breath. I realise that I do all what I do in last months because I want came back, and do all because I must, not because I want to do. But now I see that I all what I do it was good for my mind and my body and when I see that I lost some kg I like myself more than before and I feel better than ever that I remember. I commit myself that I do because I want, not because I must to do.

petek, 28. april 2017

Day 112: I am not pretty enough 3

I compare myself with other people and I go from one side to other. I'm not pretty enough, but this is because this and that. But in real I don't accept myself who I am.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare with other if is my behaviour good or bad. When and as I see myself to compare myself with other if is m behaviour good or bad, I stop and breath. I realise that I can't compare myself because each people are unique and this compare made more and more reactions that I want it erase. I commit myself that I don't compare with other my behaviour and anything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that be beautiful, be model, be pretty is something imaginary. When and as I see myself to think that be beautiful, be model, be pretty is something imaginary, I stop and breath. I realise that I can live this words when I see myself beautiful and when I like myself in the same way I expect to like me other people. I commit myself that I live words be pretty and beautiful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that other women are prettiest than me. When and as I see myself to think that other women are prettiest than me, I stop and breath. I realise that each person is beautiful if the love itself. If person not love itself that person are ugly for itself and this feel and see other people too. I commit myself that I see myself how beautiful I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I'm not intelligent enough. When and as I see myself to think that I'm not intelligent enough, I stop and breath. I realise that inteligence is not important in life, more important is work and the same important than work is beauty. Not need be intelligent and beauty to have nice life, more important is love myself, be in the moment, breath and live. I commit myself that I don't think about intelligence, but I breath, because is more important.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for opposite when I see something negative on me and think that I can change something on that way. When and as I see myself to look for opposite when I see something negative on me and think that I can change something on that way, I stop and breath. I realise that I don't see each time a solution that is best for all, but I see something opposite and think that is the best for me, but in the most time is not the best solution. So in that moment I must stop and breath. I commit myself that I don't look for some opposite solution, but real solution.

četrtek, 27. april 2017

Day 111: I am not pretty enough 2

I look in my past 2 blogs and look what is real and what is only in my mind, what think that it must be in that way. And I see that I really write because I write and not because I want to change.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that is important how other people see me. When and as I see myself to think that is important how other people see me, I stop and breath. I realise that I don't see myself who I really am, but I look what other people say to me who I am and what I must to do. And this isn't what I really an, because they don't know who I am. I commit myself to see who I really am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not believe if other people say to me that I'm pretty. When and as I see myself to not believe if other people say to me that I'm pretty, I stop and breath. I realise that this sentence is opposite of sentence before. I can listen people if they say that I'm pretty, but when I realise that I'm really pretty and their sentence I live. I commit myself that I don't run away if people say to me that I'm pretty, but I start live word pretty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself with other people. When and as I see myself to compare myself with other people, I stop and breath. I realise that each person live their life and have different experience and I can't compare with them. I must find my own path in my life and live my own life. I commit myself to see who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I must look other women how they walk, talk, behave, doing and thinking and do like them. When and as I see myself to think that I must look other women how they walk, talk, behave, doing and thinking and do like them, I stop and breath. I realise that I must walk, talk, behave, do and think like myself. I must be myself. I can see how they do all, but in the end I must do the best for all. I can't force on men. I commit myself that I live my life the best that I can and see when people around me don't want talk with me anymore and then I go away or change topic or change my behaviour to them.

petek, 31. marec 2017

Day 110: I am not pretty enough 1

I'm single, because I'm not like other women. They are pretty, intelligent, attractive and they know to talk with men.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I'm not intelligent enough. When and as I see myself to think that I'm not intelligent enough, I stop and breath. I realise that women not need be intelligent to have a men, but I need be myself who really am. I commit myself to know, that I'm so intelligent, more that a lot of other people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I'm not attractive enough. When ans as I see myself to think that I'm not attractive enough, I stop and breath. I realise that being attractive is not have big boobs, small ass and have make-up, but that real smile, be proud on myself, love myself and feel good in each moment. I commit myself that I look women and see how look like and how do attractive women for me and look if I have this atribute.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I don't know how to talk with men. When and as I see myself to think that I don't know how to talk with men, I stop and breath. I realise that I speak with men like I want him or I hate him. I don't use middle way like when I talk with women and talk with them like friends. So I must talk with men like with friends and time brings me what we became. I commit myself to not look like women who need men.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I'm not pretty enough. When and as I see that I'm not pretty enough, I stop and breath. I realise that I see other women more pretty than I am, but this is only in my mind. Last time men says to me that I'm pretty, I look beautiful, but I don't believe them. This is because I don't believe myself. I commit myself that I know that I'm enough petty to have partner.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that pretty women don't have double chin that I have it. When and as I see myself to think that pretty women don't have double chin that I have it, I stop and breath. I realise that I have double chin because I'm overweight, but other women can don't have in same weight, or have with lees weight. Each person is different and in this difference are all beauty. I commit myself that I accept how I look like and see in my double chin something positive.

sreda, 29. marec 2017

Day 109: I am not pretty enough

I believe that I'm not pretty enough. That I'm too fat to be pretty, that my teeth are so bad to be pretty. That I must behave better to be pretty.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not pretty enough. When and as I see myself to believe that I'm not pretty enough, I stop and breath. I realise that be pretty is not how I think I look like, but how I feel and how I think how other people see me. I commit myself that I know, that I'm pretty enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must be skinny to be pretty. When and as I see myself to believe that I must be skinny to be pretty, I stop and breath. I realise that each person can be pretty if live this word and is pretty and have good behave and so on. I commit myself to know that I not be skinny to be pretty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that person must behave good if want to be pretty. When and as I see myself to believe that person must behave good if want to be petty, I stop and breath. I realise that I don't know what is real good behave and I don't really know how to behave good. All this years I listen. Be good, look how behave in public, you don't know you behave, and so on and I don't know what is right and what is wrong. So I must behave like other people in group and like people on my age. I commit myself that I look how other people behave and I behave the same than the most other people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I'm not pretty enough because I have big ass. When and as I see myself to believe that I'm not pretty enough because I have big ass, I stop and breath. I realise that size of ass is not important for being pretty or not. I commit myself to know that size od ass is not important for being pretty or not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that being pretty is being beautiful like model and all the people must tell you how you beautiful and so on but being pretty is something imaginary, that you can't touch it. When and as I see myself to believe that being pretty is being beautiful like a model and the people must tell you how you beautiful and so on but being pretty is something imaginary, that you can't touch it, I stop and breath. I realise that I look how I look like and how other look like and how I think how other people think how I look like, and so on, but each person see in other people all the best, and on self the worst. I commit myself to see who I am in real not in my imagination.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that other people see me more beautiful than I see myself  and I see other people more beautiful that really is. When and ans I see myself to believe that other people see me more beautiful than I see myself and I see other people more beautiful that really is, I stop and breath. I realise that people see on me a lot of things that I don't see on myself and I see on the other people so much small things that I want to have but I think that I don't have. I commit myself to see who I am and how I look like in real and how pretty I am in real.

ponedeljek, 27. februar 2017

Day 108: Food 4

Last time I don't eat because I feel sick. Because it I lost more kg than I think I can, so I think that is not only that I don't eat so much than before.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad because no need eat because I'm too sick for that. When and as I see myself to feel bad because no need eat because I'm too sick for that, I stop and breath. I realize that I must listen my body, but I must eat or drink too. If I can't eat, I must drink as much as possible. I commit myself that I eat what and when I can eat and need eat.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad because I lost kg because I don't eat so much not because I move my ass. When and as I see myself to feel bad because I lost kg because I don't eat so much not because I move my ass, I stop and breath. I realize that if I lost some kg is no meter how, but more important is if that lost stay lost and no have soon more kg than I have before. I commit myself that I look what I eat and begin with sport and move my ass as soon as possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be worry about food and lost weight. When and as I see myself to be worry about food and lost weight, I stop and breath. I realize that I have a lot of kg and I can lost it faster than later, but I must look that I lost it or be in the same weigh. I commit myself that do all to be fit and active and lost slowly my weight to normal for my height.

sobota, 25. februar 2017

Day 107: Food 3

In relation with food is digestion too. Once when you eat food our body processed it and use important parts of food and other go through body out. And how fast is our metabolism is important because our body figure and our health.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try made my metabolism faster too fast, but it no go. When and as I see myself to try made my metabolism faster too fast, but it no go, I stop and breath. I realize that I can change my metabolism slowly with work on myself and change what I eat. I commit myself that I change my metabolism with food with more fiber.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not to look what I'm eat and what is good for my body and health. When and as I see myself to not to look what I'm eat and what is good for my body and heath, I stop and breath. I realize that some food made me sick and blow me up. It was good to avoid this food, but is good taste of it. I commit myself to eat more fruits and vegetables, here spring will come soon.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to eat food who made acid in my stomach and because I have reflux acid go back in the throat and it hurt me. When and as I see myself to eat food who made acid in my stomach and because I have reflux acid go back in the throat and it hurt me, I stop and breath. I realize that I eat too much food who made acid in my stomach and if I'm nervous is all worse. I commit myself that I eat good food and look for my health.

torek, 24. januar 2017

Day 106: Food 2

I eat a lot of bad food and only a few good food. But this is good or bad food for other people and this is not need be the same for my body. Body tell me what food is good or bad for me.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to eat food that blow me up. When and as I see myself to eat food that blow me up, I stop and breath. I realize that some food like flour blow me up and don't feel good, but if I eat fat or meat I feel good. I commit myself to find food that is good for my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not to eat food that is good taste and my body accept it. When and as I see myself to not to eat food that is good taste and my body accept it, I stop and breath. I realize that I fruits and vegetables is the best a few minutes or hours after I pick it up. So I eat most of fruits and vegetables when is season for it. For some is only a few weeks, for other a few months, but this food is the best for me. I commit myself to eat more good food that my body like it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel better if I eat unhealthy food that my body like it than I eat healthy food that my body don't like it. When and as I see myself to feel better if I eat unhealthy food that my body like it than I eat healthy food that my body don't like it, I stop and breath. I realize that if body like some kind of food is that food good for them and I not need to worry about it. If food is not good, or I eat too much, body tell me that. I commit myself to listen my body what food is good for it.


nedelja, 22. januar 2017

Day 105: Food 1

Last days I have problem with my food. Some days I eat too much and too fattening food, other day I can't eat at all. I have problem with my stomach too, because I'm so nervous last days.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be nervous and because it I don't eat right. When and as I see myself to be nervous and because it I don't eat right, I stop and breath. I realize that if I'm nervous I have problem with my stomach. So being nervous and stomach problem is in relation. When I have problem with stomach I must look why I'm nervous, if I see that or not. I commit myself to when I see that I have problem with my stomach I look if I'm nervous and realize what make me nervous.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to eat too much when I calm myself. When and as I see myself to eat too much when I cal myself, I stop and breath. I realize that I can't eat, because my stomach is smaller and I think that I will throw up when I was nervous and when I calm myself I become hungry and later, after a few hours I can eat a lot. And if I'm nervous all day I can be all day without food. I commit myself that I try to eat when I'm nervous too.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to eat too much and too fattening food. When and as I see myself to eat too much and too fattening food, I stop and breath. I realize that when I see what kind of food I want to eat, and I see that food is not good for me, I try to change food, cook something else, eat less than I want to. I commit myself that I look what kind of food I eat and eat more healthy food.