Day 118: I change 1

I see that we don't want changes, that we scare it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to scare change myself. When and as I see myself to scare change myself, I stop and breath. I realise that people like to live life that they know it and we scare change things in our lives. We prefer talk how bad is our life than we change it on better. But this change is only small step, but for people who must made change is big jump. So, I commit myself that I jump, I made changes in my life, because it will be better.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to scare change, because I don't know what change brings to me. When and as I see myself to scare change, because I don't know what change brings to me, I stop and breath. I realise that change brings to me change and we can change on better or in worst, but we stay people like since now. Changes change us. So, I commit myself that I begin like change, I accept it and see that change brings something new in my life and this is better than lay on the couch.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not to see that change brings in my life something new. When and as I son't see that change brings in my life something new, I stop and breath. I realise that each moment, each breath, each though is different like before. We change ourself each moment, we live change every moment but in the same time we scare changes, we want be sure what came to us next moment. But in that case we only thinking, not living life. So, I commit myself that I try live each moment, accepted new things, live change, accepted changes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to love looking change in nature, but I don't accepted change in relation with me. When and as I see myself to love looking change in nature, but I don't accepted change in relation with me, I stop and breath. I realise that I prefer look how nature is changing, how animals grow, how plants grow, I love to look how season change, how clouds change their shapes. But when I look myself I hate change, I don't want to change myself, I scare change, but I change, hears are grow, nails grow, we change weight and so on, but we don't see this little changes. But we hate big changes, we scare this big changes, but we scare what? So, I commit myself that I look change in nature, but I look change on and in myself too, because all change are beautiful and we must see it and realise it.

Day 117: I change

Investigate more who I am as change. If I change something on myself. Am I change myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to scare changes. When and as I see myself to scare changes, I stop and breath. I realise that a lot of people don't want changes and so stay where they are and don't want to step in better way. But how is wrote. If you do always the same, not expect that results was different. So, I commit myself to each day I step out of the bubble and made change on myself or I made something that I don't feel comfortable in first moment, but in the end was good results.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't see change on myself. When and as I see myself that not to see change on myself, I stop and breath. I realise that I live from one day to another and sometimes I don't see myself. I know, that I work on myself, but I don't see how much change I made and if this change is real or only in my mind. So, I commit myself that I don't worry if I don't see if I change myself or other people say how much I change myself, but only work on on myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to write SF and I don't mean real about what I write. When and as I see myself to write SF and I don't mean real about what I write, I stop and breath. I realise that often I write something that I want to be written but I don't think what I wrote, because I'm tired, have a lot of work, it's late or I don't know what to write. So in that moment I only write and don't think about, but other days I write and forget what I write and there are some writings that I take time and I write because I want made change on me and that writing are the best for me. So, I commit myself that I before write something think what I want to write and see problems and solutions or only problems and through writings find solution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't live word change. When and as I see myself to don't live word change, I stop and breath. I realise that live word change is react different is similar situation, but this react is supportive for myself and people around me. But in SF I scare to write real good correction, because if I react like I write in SC statement I change myself and there are change and I scare change and scare be different that other days. But yes. Sometimes I react different like other days because I see in that moment that I must do that. I live change in the moment and feeling is good. So, I commit myself that I write good SC statement and do what I wrote and if I see what I must to change, I do that in moment when I see.