Day 30: Who am I?

I admit, that I wite a blogs because I want finish with DIP Lite and go to the DIP Pro, and sometimes I write only because I writing, not because I want change myself. I change in last four months since I start with DIP Lite and writing blogs, but I still don't know who I am and why I'm here and what I must to do, why I was be born in this planet. I have so much questions and so little answers. I live in two parallel worlds, before and after start with DIP Lite and I'm so confused. I know, that all answers is on me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself writing because I write, not because I want see change in myself. When and as I see myself writing because I write, not because I want see change in myself, I stop and breath. I realize that I change myself with writing, because I see myself now how I change. I am more peace and I can talk with all people. I don't look for love, touch and attention anymore, because I write out all and forgive myself about it. I commit myself  to belive that all what I write is work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that I don't know who I am and what I do in this planet. When and as I see myself think that I don't know who I am and what I so in this planet, I stop and breath. I realize that I live now in this planet, and I want help other start to live, but I don't see how, because I'm not enough emotionally stable and I don't know enough about think, mind and other important things. I commit myself that I do and don't think what to do and who I am and what I must to be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think too much about things that not important for me and my life. When and as I see myself think too much about things that not important for me and my life, I stop and breath. I realize I do what I must to do if I think or not, but if I don't think, I do more and faster and I'm not so tired. I commit myself that I stop think and start do.

Day 29: Look young

Today I made different hairstyle than other and I think that I look younger than I am. I don't know if I'm realy so young or I only think that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that I look young because I'm change hairstyle. When and as I see myself think that I look young because I'm change hairstyle, I stop and breathe. I realize that I see myself young because I fell young and I'm young. I commit myself that I see myself how I look in real, not how I fell.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that I look young because I see myself younger that other people look. When and as I see myself think that I look young because I see myself younger that other people look, I stop and breathe. I realize that this is only my irelevant perceptions and this is only how I see other. I commit myself that I don't compare myself with others.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to compare myself with others. When and as I see myself compare myself with others, I stop and breathe. I realize that I can't compate myself with others because I'm different than others and each person is unique. I commit myself that I don't compare myself with others.

Day 28: Pay me please

In December and January I was work. I work 10 or more hours at day. And I don't see money jet, because my boss don't have money, because he tell me that them don't pay. And I must live without money and ask him for my money all month each day and if I have lucky he pay me in one month.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be angry on him and almoust want to kill him. When and as I see myself be angry on him and almoust want to kill him, I stop and breath. I realize that in this case help me only that I call him each day. I commit myself that I be calm when I speake with him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be angry on myself that I still go to the work to him. When and as I see myself  be angry on myself that I sill go to the work to him, I stop and breath. I realize that this is my problem not his. I commit myself that I'm not so naive.

Day 27: Fall because I'm thinking

Tomorrow will be one year since my grandma die. Today I go to the forest and thinking about her and fall on my ass. Later I'm thinking about my thinking and hurt myself once again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking about my grandma who die one year ago. When and as I see myself thinking about my grandma who die one year ago, I stop and breath. I realize that I don't forgor her yet. I commit myself that I don't think about her so much.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself don't be carefull and fall on my ass. When and as I see myself don't be carefull and fall on my ass, I stop and breath. I realize if I look and think when and how I walk I don't fall. I commit myself that I think what I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and alowed myself think about my fall and hurt myself again. When and as I see myself think about my fall and hurt myself again, I stop and breath. I realize that I go here each year and this is first time that I fall. I commit myself that I look when I go.

Day 26: Be nervous

Today I was nervous because I was sleep too little and I'm tired and because computer don't work enougt fast that I want and need.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be nervous because computer don't work enough fast, because I need it. When and as I see myself be nervous because computer don't work enough fast, because I need it, I stop and breath. I realize that if computer work slow is ok, because I can do, but when computer stop, then it will be problem. I commit myself that if computer work slow I work slow too.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself have unproperly conversation with other people, because I'm only tired. When and as see myself have unproperly conversation with other people, because I'm only tired, I stop and breath. I realize if I'm tired I must go sleep and other people must see me like I'm sleep enough. I commit myself that I look like and act like I'm sleep enough and I'm feel perfect.

I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself argue with other people after I see myself where is problem. When and as I see myself argue with other people after I see myself where is problem, I stop and breath. I realize that this is last moment that I can made something right in the moment that I can do wrong. I commit myself that if I see where is problem I stop thinking and do something.

Day 25: Have a time

Today I  have time all day, but in the same time I don't have any time. I come to an agreement with someone to work together, but bouth must do other things too.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that other people must have time when I have time. When and as I see myself think that other people have time when I have time, I stop and breath. I realize that other people have other work too, not only agreement for work with me. I commit myself that I do what I must to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that I must be very important if I say that I don't have time in that moment than other have time and then argue if other don't have time when I have time. When and as I see myself think that I must be bery important if I say that I don't have time in that moment than other have time and then argue if other don't have time when I have time, I stop and breath. I realize that sometimes have time me and sometimes other, so we must have a conversation and don't be angry if other people don't have time when I have time. I commit myself that I adjust other people around me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that other people know when I have time without conversation and that other people told me when they have time, without I ask them. When and as I see myself think that other people know when I have time without conversation and that other people told me when they have time, without I ask them, I stop and breath. I realize that conversation is very important. I commit myself that I ask and say what I want to know and what I must say for normal comunication.

Day 24: Rainy day

I'm so lazy, but today is really lazy day, because is rain all day. I stay in house all day and my head hurt me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be lazy because it's rain outside. When and as I see myself be lazy because it's rain outside, I stop and breath. I realize that I do something inside if I can't do anything outside, but I can go out to the walk with umbrella too. I commit myself that I doing something in all weather situation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that my head hurt me, because I stay inside and have low presure. When and as see myself that my head hurt me, because I stay inside and have low presure, I stop and breath. I realize that I must go out to the walk or doing something interesting inside. I commit myself that I go out more often.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself hink that if raining outside, that is nothing interesting to see outside. When and as I see myself think that if raining outside, that is nothing interesting to see outside, I stop and breath. I realize if I go out to take some picture I can take it, because is all day is different and all kind of picture is beautifull. I commit myself that I go out in the rain and take some picture.

Day 23: 8 more to go

Today I done 19 Daily Assigment about Working with Memories and I thinkink what will be when I finish all. I'm nervous and I don't know what to do next. Yes, I know that is too soon that I think about it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be worry about what to do when I finish DIP Lite, but I'm far away finish. When and as I see myself be worry about what to do when I finish DIP Lite, but I'm far away finish, I stop and breath. I realize that I thinking too much about things that don't finish yet. I commit myself that I think about tnings that I must think about.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be nervous before I finish Lite. When and as I see myself be nervous before I fonish Lite, I stop and breath. I realize that I don't know if I will be finish Lite or I stop doing process. I commit myself that I'm calm and do what I must do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking about my Budy. When and as I see myself thinking about my Budy, I stop and breath. I realize that isn't importat who my Budy is, because I write in two languages and with writing in English I learn language. I commit myself that I don't worry about my Budy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be nervous because I don't know how to pay DIP Pro, because I don't have enough money. When and as I see myself be nervous because I don't know how to pay DIP Pro, because I don't have enough money, I stop and breath. I realize that they help me if I don't have enough money, but I worry anyway about it. I commit myself that I don't wory.

Day 22: Now I know

Today I see that all in my new business are game. All playing their rule and wear mask. Today I see them without the mask, because they don't understand each other, so they say me, that I'm not enough good for that kind of work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I start cry, because they say me, that I'm not enough good for them. When and as I see myself that I start cry, because they say me, that I'm not enough good for them, I stop and breath. I realize, that I start cry, because I want work there, but I know now, that I don't need this work if they don't want me there. I commit myself that I don't cry anymore.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that I'm less than other people. When and as see myself think that I'm less than other people, I stop and breath. I realize that they know more about this specific think more, because they do this a lot of time. I commit myself that I'm worth the same than other people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I don't go out when the boss say that we can fell superior in one specific moment, because we know more than other people. When and as I see myself that I don't go out when bosssay that we can fell superior in one specific moment, because we know more tham other people, I stop and breath. I realize, that I know that this isn't good. Noone can't fell superior, because all people are equal. I commit myself that I do or say something if I don't agree with other people.

Day 21: Not my day

Today I text some messages if someone have time that I promote something for them, but noone don't have time. So I be in bed till lunch. After lunch I argue with my mum and want kill myself. When I think how I can kill myself I decide to finish read a book Running Lean and when I fonish it, I start read other book.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be bad mood because I don't find any person to promote them my businnes. When and as I see myself be bad mood because I don't find any pesron to promote them my businnes, I stop and breath. I realize that this is normal, because a lot of people say me NO, I don't need it, or something other. I commit myself that if say me NO, I know, that they don't say me no, but product.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think how kill myself because I allow that my mum's words affect on me and I be angry on her. When and as I see myself think how kill myself because I allow that my mum's words affect on me and I be angry on her, I stop and breath. I realize that I don't be stong enough and words affect on me and I react on it and have feelings and emotions. I commit myself that I don't react on any words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I think about death. When and as I see myself that I think about death, I stop and breath. I realize that I think about death when I don't know what to do or if other people say somethink that I don't do. I know that if I kill myself I don't do anything good, not for me, not for other, but death is only think that other see me that I have problem, only death open people eyes. I commit myself that I never kill myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that only death open people eyes. When and as I see maself think that only death open people eyes, I stop and breath. I realize that isn't thrue, but some peopel see that other people have problems when someone die. I commit myself that I don't generalize.

Day 20: New business

Today I have interview for new business. I talk with sale manager. In the begining I was nervous, but soon, I be relaxed when talk with him. I meet my new coworker too.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be nervous because I meet new people that I don't know yet. When and as I see myself be nervous because I meet new people that I don't know yet, I stop and breath. I realize that breathing help, because I be less nervous when I drive, but later, moment before I meet directors I be nervous again. I commit myself that I see and be calm all the time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I think that directors are so important people. When and as I see maself thinking that directors are so important pople, I stop and breath. I realize that some directors are very important, but in my case I soon see that this two are the same like me. I feel that when I relaxed. In one moment I feel and see how equal we are. I feel the moment of equality. I commit myself that I know and think about all people is equal like me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that I'm less than other people who is in this business more time. When and as I see myself think that I'm less than other people who is in this business more time, I stop and breathe. I realize is this only in my mind and all people know a lot of, but I'm uniqe, so I can't compare myself with others. I commit myself that I know I'm unique.

Day 19: To shake hands with the President of Slovenia

Yesterday I go to the event 500 businesswomens and in some moment the President of Slovenia came in this event. I see photographers and in moment I know that is he came. Later I see that he shake hands with some that I know and then I see that he want shake hands with me, so I take a hend him and say hello and smile. And this is it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be happy inside that he shake hand with me. When and as I see myself to be happy inside that he shake hand with me, I stop and breath. I realize that I know that all people is equal, so I don't be panic and euphoric, only be glad. I commit myself that I be calm in that situations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I thinking about what will be next year, because each year I shake hand with more important people. When and as I see myself that I think about what will be net year, because each year I shake hand with more important people, I stop and breath. I realize that I be important person too, because I know that I am equal that other people, more or less important than me. I commit myself that I'm a simple and all can talk with me and I talk with all people who want talk with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thinking about this shake hands with him all the time. When and as I see myself to thinking about this shake hands with him all the time, I stop and breath. I realize that was been and now is new moment, and I'm at home and it's new day. I commit myself that I be in real time and don't think about moment in past.

Day 18: Disease, tiredness and dreams

Last days I was been so tired, because I have disease. Nothing important, only my legs hurts me. And in this days I anly all the time I sleep. I sleep too much, because I stat dreaming. This mean that my mind have "party".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that I sleep more that I need. When and as I see myself think that I sleep more that I need, I stop and breath. I realize that in this situation is only think that I can do sleep, so I sleep and read a book. I commit myself that I sleep if my body say that I need rest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to listen my body when they say that they need rest. When and as I see myself not to listen my body when they say that they need rest, I stop and breath. I realize if I work too much, it's go, but when I stop I sick/ill, and I must rest. I commit myself that I take my body rest and listen it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that is dreaming bad thing. When and as I see myself think that is dreaming bad thing, I stop and breath. I realize that if I sleep more than often and I'm tired because I sleep too much I dreaming and I remember this dream, because people say, that we dreaing all night, but we don't remember dream. A few days ago I dream first time that I remember since December, so I go sleep when I tired and wake up proper time. And dreaming isn't bad, is only picture of our mind, what we hink and feel. I commit myself that I sleep enough time, not to much, no less than I need.

Day 17: Be nervous

Less that 5 days and I will go on the event where will be almoust 500 businesswomans and I be nervous becaus it. I'm businesswomen too, but I start my business. I don't know how this event look like, because this event in in this yeas third time and I go first time. I only listen what they say and know new people in business world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be nervous because I don't know what will be doing there. When and as I see myself that I'm  nervoust because I don't know what will be doing there, I stop and breath. I realize that all will be ok if I be nervous or not. I only go there and doing the same thing than other women. I commit myself I calm.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself because I go there first time and I am nervous.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be nervous because I don't have any red thing, because I need it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be nervouse because I don't know if I have enough bussines cards.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  be nervous because I don't know if I enough good to be businesswomen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be nervous because I don't know how explain other what I do and want to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be unsure in myself and don't belive in myself. When and as I see myself fo be unsure in myself and don't belive in myself, I stop and breath. I realize that because all this thing in my head don't help me, only make me more unsure. I commit myself if I thing negative I breath and stop thinking.

Day 16: I was quiet

I look hangout about bullying and I was remember that I write about it, but I don't realize that this is it. I write about one person, men, who want that I marry him. All start in cyber, so this is cyber bullying. Now I can write in web, but previously I can't, because I don't belive any person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself belive this person. When and as I see myself belive this person, I stop and breath. I realize, that he lie me in the start, because he say he younger that realy is. I commit myself that I don't belive any person in the start who don't be self-honest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I can't say STOP this bullying. When and as I see myself that I can't say stop this bullying, I stop and breath. I realize that I was too week to say stop, because he threat me. I commit myself that I am strong and say what I think and don't belive persons who want bullying me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be scare and don't tell about this my parents. When and as I see myself be scared and don't tell about this my parents, I stop and breathe. I realize that when I told my parents, they help me, but they say me to finish this, but this is so difficult to do. I commit myself if I have problem I told this someone I trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  that I don't belive any male persons, because I belive they all bad boys. When and as I see myself that I don't belive any male persons, because I belive they all bad boys, I stop and breathe, I realize that if I don't belive mens I'm single all the time, and I don't have partner. I commit myself that be more strong and talk with mens.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that want to be bullying. When and as I see myself that I want be bullying. I realize that I stop this if I don't want that he bullying me, so this is my fault. I commit myself that I see if someone bullying me and say stop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I think I was guilty that he bully me. When and as I see myself that I think I was guilty that he bully me, I stop and breathe. I realize that I only think and this is onli his guilt and he must see that. I commit myself that I be strong and stop bullying in future.

Day 15: I lie myself

Today I find out some information and start cry. In that moment I have something in my mind, but soon I forgot on that. While the writing I remember that and realize that I lie myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I lie myself. When and as I see myself that I lie myself, I stop and breathe. I realize that I don't want belive myself that in first time I think something else. I commit myself that I belive myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I want be self-honest, but I don't be enough. When and as I see myself that I want be self-honest, but I don't be enough, I stop and breath. I realize this is because I'm in my mind and mind had power. I commit myself that I be self-honest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be in my mind. I commit myself to when and as I see myself be in my mind, I stop and breath and live in that moment. I realize that is so easy, I must only breath and be in breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I see something and belive that is real. When and as I see myself that I see something and belive that is real, I stop and breath. I realize that I see is on my mind and have feelings and emotions about things, but if I touch is real. I commit myself that I belive only my touch.

Day 14: I need it

I need talk with someone, but not with all who want talk with me. Only with people that they understand me and I understand them. No, I can talk with person who talk in English, but bigger problem is, if person talk about nonsens.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I want talk only with person that I want. When and as I see myself that I want talk only with person that I want, I stop and breath. I realize that is my problem, because if I want I can talk with all people who want talk with me without problem. I commit myself I speak with other without feelings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to need all the time be near someone or talk with someone. When and as I see myself to need all the time be near someone or talk with someone, I stop and breath. I realize I looking for attention from other people, because I scare be alone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself looking for attention from other people. When and as I see myself looking fot attention from other people, I stop and breath. I realize that I don't know how be with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I don't know how be with myself and feel good. When and as I see myself that I don't know how be with myself and feel good, I stop and breathe. I realize that I must love myself that I don't do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I don't know how I love myself and I don't love myself at all. When and as I see myself that I don't knoe how I love myself and I don't love myself at all, I stop and breathe. I realize that I must tuch myself and hug myself. I commit myself I work on myself and love myself and want be with myself and don't need be with other people.

Day 13: What he do to me

In DIP Lite I work with my memory and I write about him. And when I write my right knee start hurt me. I know that is about him, because I have bad memory about him, because I can't say him NO, because I scare him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed scare him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed scare to say him no.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blackmail with threats by him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belive him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accpet his proposal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be unhappy when I be with him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be with him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think about him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself answer when he call and when is ower be bad mood.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself hate myself because I be with him and belive him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself scare hime because he threats me.

When and as I see myself doing this thing, I stop and breath. I realize I don't forgot him and I have still scare of it. I commit myself I am strong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself scare be with mens. When and as I see myself that I scare be with mens, I stop and breath. I realize I scare all mens because he hurt me and I don't belive any men anymore. I commit myself that all person are different.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking that all mens are the same. When and as I see myself thinking that all mens are the same, I stop and breathe. I realize that each person are different and someone is nice and I belive him. I commit myself to go to the date with someone.

Day 12: My mind win

Yesterday I went to the forest and take some photos and walk around. And when I came at home I'm tired, but my mind wasn't, so mind have party and I have a big problem.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be in mind when I walk around and take a photo. When and as I see mysef be in mind when I walk aroun and take a photo, I stop and breathe. I realize that I'm too often in my mind and I don't breath enough. When I walk and look for some picture I thinking what I can photo, how close I can came and other thing. And all the time I'm in the mind. I commit myself that I breathe more and when I see myself that I think, I must start breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I don't think only when I see what to take a photo and don't all the time. When and as I see myself that I don't think only when I see what to take a photo and don't all the time, I stop and breath. I realize that I must think about that I do, not about vhat I see or what I want to see. I must be more real. I commit myself that I think only what I need to think.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself tired my body and put out a energy to my mind. When and as I see myself tired my body and put out energy to my mind, I stop and breathe. I realize that my body was tired I need relax and don't talk with some person. I commit myself I more walk, less be in mind and if I'm tired I relax first.

Day 11: Be with myself

Last days I too much talk with other people in chat, so today I want a peace. I'm tired because I spend all my energy to talk with them, because they don't understand me and I must them explain what I think.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to struggle for explain other one little simple thing and spend all my energy for that. When and as I see myself to struggle for explain other one little simple thing and spend all my energy for that, I stop and breath. I realize I need do something for myself what I love to do and be alone with myself. I commit myself that I be with myself when I feel I need be with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself fell guilty because I say other that I don't have time for chat. When ans as I see myself fell guilty because I say other that I don't have time for chat, I stop and breath. I realize that I need time for myself and if once say someone that I don't want chat with them, because I don't have time, is ok, but if I say this sentence more than once is not my guilty and they have problem, not me. I commit myself that when I fell that I need peace I take peace without guilty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself don't be with myself and fell super. When and as I see myself don't be with myself and fell super, I stop and breath. I realize that I can fell good with myself  and do this without problem. I commit myself that I be with myself more often.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself explain all what I know and what I think. When and as I see myself eplain all what I know and what I think, I stop and breat. I realize I don't need help other wuth explaning other what I know, because I need time for learn this and if other want know, I can send them only link and they know too, but if they don't understand what I think, live them alone, because they don't want hear what I want tell them. I commit myself that I look and listen other and see if they listen me or not and if they don't listen me, I live them.

Day 10: What am I

What I am and how I see myself? I don't see myself how I look like, I see myself how other say me how I look like or how I think I look like and this is not real. So, how I really look like I see in end of this blog.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself like other see me. When and as I see myself lake other see me, I stop and breathe. I realize that other people see me that they think how I look like, not how I realy look like, so isn't good to belive them. I commit myself that I belive about me only myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself listen other what they think about me, how bad habits I have and I belive them. When and as I see myself listen other what they think about me, how bad habits I have and I belive them, I stop and breath. I realize that noone can't told me what I must do or what I must not to do. I commit myself that I'm only person that I belive what I sey about myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I'm not my habits and what I do and what I sey and what I feel. When and as I see myself that I'm not my habits and what I do and what I say and what I feel, I stop and breath. I realize that habits, fellings, what I say and do is not what I am. I commit myself that I see myself that I'm person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I told about myself that I am small and ugly and fat and stupid and other thing. When and as I see myself that I told about myself that I am small and ugly and fat and stupid and other thing, I stop and breath. I realize that I am person with specific high, specific weigh, I have brown eye and hair and know a lot of things. I commit myself that I see myself what I am, a person.

Day 9: Picture in the clouds

Sometimes I look in the sky and in the clouds I see different picture, animals and different simbols. But this is only what I see, not what realy is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see different picture, animals and simbols in the clouds. When and as I see myself that I see different picture, animals and simbols in the clouds, I stop and breath. I realize that I see only clouds, other image that I see is on my mind. I commit myself I see only what is real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see clouds that look like some animals. When and as I see myself that I see clouds that look like animals, I stop and breath. I realize that this is only clouds in that form and I don't see picture or animals in the clouds. I commit myself that I talk what I really see, not what I think I see.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see animals in clouds, because in that way is some clouds and some animals more important than other. When and as I see myself that I see animals in the clouds, because in that way is some clouds and some animals more important than other, I stop and breath. I realize that clouds are clouds and animals are animals and I can't see animals in the clouds and clouds in the animals. I commit myself that I see only real thing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I like take a photo of clouds, because have so much different shapes and colours, and they are so beauty for me. When and as I see myself that I like take a photo of clouds, because have so much different shapes and colours, and they are so beauty for me, I stop and breath. I realize that is no problem that I take a photo of clouds, but because I have feeling of them. I commit myself that clouds is only clouds.

Day 8: Selfie

Today I photo myself betwen I tape vlogs. But why I must take selfie? What is poin of this. I take some normal photo and some where I make a face.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed take a selfie only for fun, for no reasion. When and as I see myself take a selfie only for fun, for no reasion. I realize that I take selfie with reasion, but not realize in thet moment why. I commit myself that I take selfie with reasion and without feelings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed make a face when a took selfie. When and as I see myself make a face when I took selfie, I stop and breath. I realite that if I need some photo I must look like normal on it not with funny face. I commit myself that I take only photo without funny face.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed take a selfie that mean that I am more important than other persons around me. When and as I see myself take a selfie that mean I am more important than other persons aroud me. I realize that selfie mean that I take photo of myself, but if noone is near me to take photo of me, I must take photo of myself. I commit myself that I took photo of me only if I need my photo.

Day 7: Relations

Last time I have problem with relation between me and some men. I often arguing with him with no reason. I think because I like him, because this arguing was more often after our meeting. I think I want be with him, but he don't want be with me, so in that way I want that he see me. I told him what I think about him and he told me that he don't want be with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I think about him and argue with him. When and as I see myself that I think about him and argue with him, I stop and breath. I realize that I know that he don't want me, and I don't in love on him, but this is what I told other and think this. I commit mysself that I stop argue with him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that he see me if I argue with him. When and as I see myself that he see me if I argue with him, I stop and breath. I realize that he don't wand be near me, because I talk too much and argue with him, so I chase away him. I commit myself that I think about myself and don't argue with him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I like him and I want be in relation with him, because I don't want be alone. When and as  I see myself that I like him and I want be in relation with him, vecause I don't want be alone. I realize that I don't like myself enough, so I look around for some persons that I want they like me and adore me. I commit myself that I must work that I like myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I don't like myself, because noone like me, and be with myself isn't enough, because I fell so lonly in that moment. When and as I see myself that I don't like myself, because noone like me, and be with myself isn't enough, because I fell so lonly in that moment, I stop and breath. I realize that I want that other see me, because I can't see myself that I'm good person and I'm good partner for myself and I can live and be with myself. I commit myself that I do in myself and start like myself.